Whenever I go through a painful experience, I pretend to be OK. I fool everyone with my sarcasm and smile. Those who see past my façade try to get me to talk to them about what’s bothering me. They say talking about it helps.

But just the thought of trusting someone and talking to them, let it be my best friends. It terrifies me.

I’m scared to let anyone in because everyone who’s ever told me ‘I’ll never leave your side’ has left.

And in the end its always me who’s kicked to the curb.

The farther away I distance myself from trusting someone the safer I feel. Cause I know I can’t get hurt again.

Its not that I don’t want to trust.

I’m just sick of getting hurt, to the point where I can say ‘I’m used to it’.