I’ve become like a walking corpse.
I smile, I talk, I laugh, I cry.
But all the while I’m dead inside.
I inflict pain upon myself to feel.
And in a weird way, when I’m tearing apart my skin with the tip of a blade, is the only time I feel alive.
It’s the only thing that allows me to know that I can still feel.
The insanity in what I do is what keeps me sane.